moderation

all i ever wanted to be is moderate.
average, i didn't want to be the worst or the best
i didn't want to be humble because that
implied that i knew i was great but didn't want
to tell everyone else, and consequently making
myself greater through humbleness.
i want to be no better but no worse.
i want to be okay, good, able.
i am. i am able to do everything moderately well,
but once you become expert at anything or
talented, skilled, GOOD, at anything
it entails too many expectations,
comparisons, room for not being the best.
i am not bad. i am okay.
you are better, and because you're better
i am not the best. i am good.